By far one of the most depressing messages I've ever seen. People change, and sometimes this is something that is in their best interest. Unfortunately, our brains tend to replay all high emotion situations when you recall memories with that person when searching for memories. What do you do when you have nothing but good memories? The kind of memories that make you cherish every word and moment with that person... how do you just walk away?
Its so difficult to accept that you've changed. Someone I've known for years is suddenly a stranger to me. At such an opportune moment too. The final year of ill be anywhere near you, the year we all say goodbye. In five months, ill be boarding a plane and starting a new chapter in my life; a chapter one filled with new people, experiences, and adventures. I acknowledge that its fairly selfish to what you to be a part of these experiences, but out of all the people I've met, I never assumed I'd lose you.
Yes, I've come to terms with the fact that I will lose copious friends in my transition; I've drawn out a mental list of those i'm ok with parting with. My reasons of course, vary from the connection not being strong enough to not having time to write new pages of memories... but your name was never intended to be added to these pages. Instead I am forced to part with all memories of who you once were, our odd conversations and group interactions, because you have changed. A change only effecting our interaction. Its fairly easy for me to read others.. and you're the same goofy noodle you were years ago, lol...just not with me. Its understandable. understandably painful. I hate goodbyes more than anything, and I wish we could just be friends again, but perhaps you're not the only one whose changed. I'm different. A different mindset holding on to old memories that just don't seem to hold up anymore. This situation is, as a result, no ones fault but mine. So I'll stand before you smiling, and ill wave as you say goodbye, ill keep my emotions to myself and hide the heartbreak of losing a friend.
I wont however, release these memories, because they were some of the best I've ever known.
Its so difficult to accept that you've changed. Someone I've known for years is suddenly a stranger to me. At such an opportune moment too. The final year of ill be anywhere near you, the year we all say goodbye. In five months, ill be boarding a plane and starting a new chapter in my life; a chapter one filled with new people, experiences, and adventures. I acknowledge that its fairly selfish to what you to be a part of these experiences, but out of all the people I've met, I never assumed I'd lose you.
Yes, I've come to terms with the fact that I will lose copious friends in my transition; I've drawn out a mental list of those i'm ok with parting with. My reasons of course, vary from the connection not being strong enough to not having time to write new pages of memories... but your name was never intended to be added to these pages. Instead I am forced to part with all memories of who you once were, our odd conversations and group interactions, because you have changed. A change only effecting our interaction. Its fairly easy for me to read others.. and you're the same goofy noodle you were years ago, lol...just not with me. Its understandable. understandably painful. I hate goodbyes more than anything, and I wish we could just be friends again, but perhaps you're not the only one whose changed. I'm different. A different mindset holding on to old memories that just don't seem to hold up anymore. This situation is, as a result, no ones fault but mine. So I'll stand before you smiling, and ill wave as you say goodbye, ill keep my emotions to myself and hide the heartbreak of losing a friend.
I wont however, release these memories, because they were some of the best I've ever known.